Rumors

So there is a rumor about the country that I am back in New Orleans. Just to settle the rumor...I am not.

I am actually still in Los Angeles. I will say this though, even though I am having a great stay here...I am thinking about heading into the hills. I actually just got back from the camping store and I was pricing backpacks, solar battery chargers and thermal sleeping bags.

Ideas, well...the ideas are Alaska, Hawaii, Mexico. Alaska is a stretch though...I DID just watch into the wild the other night.

Everything is great I am living as simply as I can, but lately I have been sleeping a tad BIT more fancy than I was. I am being torn between two things, the action of the city and the solitude of nature. Ahhh, to be a Gemini...do I want to be an actor in the city or a writer in nature?

I want BOTH!

Lets see if I can pull that off!!

It will only get better!

Sometimes things just happen the way that you want them to. Yesterday I ran around all day. I was so positive and so pumped about the day and felt that I was going to get so much accomplished. I headed to work, there was none. I went to Hollywood for an appointment with my agent and I couldn't get where I needed to be on time because of the "X-Files" premier. When I finally did get to the building that I had to be at, my agents name was no longer on the nameplate. I was disappointed and franticly searching for a pay phone when a security guard who was obviously having a bad day too, kicked me out for not belonging there. She was very rude. Time flew by and I missed my appointment. Then my phone ran out of minutes. I missed my appointment. I hopped on the bus tired and weak in spirit and decided to go catch a free screening of "Into the Wild".

After all of the running around and being tired, I retreated to the quaint little guesthouse I am staying at and fell asleep. In the morning, due to my exaustion, I slept through my alarm clock. I didn't make it to my stupid job selling tours on Hollywood Blvd. I figured, hey, what can I do....so I took a shower and checked the mail...I was recently approved for a credit card and I was hoping that my broke ass could at least go out for dinner tonight and pay my phone. No dice. Now, it is almost 2 pm and I am trying to decide if I am going to make the trek back to Hollywood to try and do it all over...or maybe I will just take the rest of the day off and watch some TV. What can I do.

Sometimes you just have to let go and see what life has in store for you. You can't make everything happen when you want it to. So I write, I meditate and I am content. Tomorrow I will write more and let you know what came of all of this. I am SURE it is going to be something wonderful!

I have yet to write this week.

I am starting to get busy. When I say "busy" I don't mean the "rat-race" kind. I mean the by the seat of your pants, doing what I love kind. I am grateful to have taken this leap and I am not entirely sure how I am pulling it off. Some days I have absolutely NO money, but at the end of the day I end up amazed that I have received all that I have needed and m,y choices have been mine. I have received some great and encouraging comments from friends and family and I have been blessed to have made some new friends and aquaintences with a like mind. Today I am off to Hollywood and then back to Santa Monica and after that we will see where the night takes me. I am a little tired. I walked 8 miles yesterday, but I am pumped. Tomorrow is Thursday and Thursday is my favorite day in L.A. (alothough last Saturday rivaled Thursday...all night Rave on the Beach)

I hope to hear from you all and keep leaving comments....they make my day!

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Tilly