I sit here and I look at my life. I look back at the last 2 1/2 years and what I set out to do. As the time runs downward on my little "quest" I realize that the "quest" has only just begun. Countless times day in and day out I am tested and tempted and teased and twisted, yet amongst this tempest my head still rises above the water. I may gag and gurgle and grasp for the next breath....but I do GET the next breath and it is an ever so wonderful breath, one that I am grateful for. I thank EVERYTHING for that breath.
Turmoil comes more and more as I am reaching this "END". I expect this sort of grand finale with everything just being spread out before me, but I still strive and struggle even though I am now perfectly trained to focus entirely on the moment at hand. With the shivering silence of a slithering serpent I navigate the through each test and trial, precisely in the present moment...NOW.
Now, as always, is entirely where I am and right NOW I am in a fabulous moment, a moment of beauty and closeness and friendship, unity and love...a moment of clarity.
Yet tomorrow still seems so difficult.
so I continue to do what this wise man says to do when he tells us this:
"Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself."
and again I realize that I am still just a student.
GET IN THE MOMENT
~1 love
tilly
