Leavin This Behind

Regretfully I have to leave Santa Cruz and some of my best friends in the entire world. I have really had a great time with some old friends and horrible times with others, but the ones who mean most to me will always be right here with me, as I am with them cuz we form like VOLTRON fool!!

Anyhow I am gonna visit L.A. til the first of the month and San Diego and then I am headed to MOAB for a long overdue visit with cousins. I'm hitting Texas and New Orleans and then visiting fam in GA before arriving in Florida. I hope to reuinite with my best of friends Patience and Bula some time in September or August and the album BETTER be done. I really want to say that this trip to Santa Cruz was one of the best ever even though there was some rough shit that went on. We got through it and we are ever stronger and closer as friends because of it.

This is going to be my last hurrah this fun summer trip and then I am going to settle down for a while. Hopefully the album will be done and we will be out promoing it.
My love to everyone and I hope I see you in my travels! Keep reading the blog, it may be fun tracking me!!

Oh ya, I met the radest girl last night. My last night here and I told her I would mention her in my blog...( I really did like her, too bad I'm going )

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Gonna Have to Man Up

I almost quit writing this blog. Recently I have started journaling a lot more and I guess the things that I have been going through in life have been a little bit more private. I have been stressed out, frankly. The economy is finally picking up but I have just not been able to find work and it is bringing me down a bit. Part of me thinks that maybe I shouldn't even be working at all right now, but that doesn't make sense, does it?

I have had an unbelievable time lately with friends in Santa Cruz. I have my beach and luckily an amzingly large circle of friends for someone who is not a local and my free time has been wonderful, I have been free. However, I am a worker bee, I like to work and all of my life have been able to pride myself as a hard worker and I just can't seem to get what I want in that are right now. I think I am going to move on. It is my theory that I have some unfinished business back home which is sorta proving to be a mental block for me of sorts and I think that I am going to be unable to move on if I don't man up and go home and handle it. I am starting to fall into some bad patterns in this stagnant place that I am in now, so WHY NOT?

It looks like some time towards the end of this month I am going to be heading out of Santa Cruz for a while. It looks like I am not going to fly this time, but I am going to take a road trip (I LOVE ROAD TRIPS) and I am going to spend some time camping and having fun in nature (possibly all by myself). At the end of this journey I will have arrived back home where I will be so happy to visit familiar faces and places and I will take care of this little thing that I have been putting off for a buncha years. I guess sometimes you just have to do things that you don't really want to do, so I aim to enjoy myself all the way up until that point. I miss all of my friends anyhow and there are a couple of you out there that I am SOOOO VERY EXCITED TO SEE and a couple that I would rather not, but that's life. I am almost completely broke at this point people and while I still hustle a bit, it is going to be nearly impossible for me to raise up all of the money I am probably going to need so, wish me luck and hey, if ya got it, hook a brother up! Think of me as charity, a poor lost little whiteboy trying to get home for 4th of July!!

I love ya all

~tilly