These are some of the more trying time in my life. It's crazy, you would think that being home and in the sunshine would be so simple. However, when I am on my wild adventures and relying on instinct and God and have no choice, that is a lot easier for me. I didn't come here to relax and I never thought that it would be an easy thing for me to do. I came back to here to face some demons and to handle some things in my life that I have been running from for a long time and I never thought I was going to go through this winter in a perfect fashion. I have become quite a simple person, but I screw up often and the people who I have had relationships in my life don't always accept or agree or even believe in the simpleness of my nature these days. Other people just hate me for it. For no reason at all I have noticed that certain people just "dislike me" now that I am trying to do the things that are right for me. Bizarre and a whole new obstacle for me to learn to deal with. I guess thats what growth is all about.
Spring is rapidly approaching and there is a lot of pressure for me in the town where I went to High School and got married for me to live up to some sort of "status quo". I spent years trying to "keep up with the Jone's" and cheating lying and stealing trying to be someone who I was not. Now I am happy with who I am and accepting that others may not accept me has been quite the battle. Trusting in God and trusting in life is harder here...but I am going to keep doing it. Knowing that life will pay me back when it matters most.
So let the rumors fly, I am armed and prepared for it all my friends, or support me as I try and support you and share my experiences to help us all grow and become better people, making the world just a tiny bit better than it was before.
That's progression and that is precisely why I came home.
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