OK folks, here we go!!!!
As most of you know I am another Tilly Adventure and what a life changing adventure it is. Don't worry about me, remember I did this in New Orleans after Katrina and also in Santa Cruz as well as other places, but remember, LOS ANGELES is a crazy place!!
Now on with SURVIVOR. Just to let you all know, life is not so glamorous right now, but it is fun!! I am currently living in one of the most expensive cities in the world, on $3.00 a day. Yep, you heard it for me and if it means anything, today, I only have $5 left, with no work until @ least Thursday, yesterday I sold an abandoned beach umbrella to get by today and thats how I am in this internet cafe typing this BLOG. I lost my phone charger, which is a good thing, because I am really focused on studying Bhuddism right now and the one on one contact with the world is distracting!! On I forge! I have contacted my agent and I have an appointment on Tuesday and I also have a temp agency to go to so I can work when I want and get paid that day. I am looking at a few CO-OP type places and I have NO plans on getting a real job, well, maybe bartending 2 days a week. I am totally planning on focusing my on my arts and thats it. I am undergoing some SERIOUS acting training and I have a plan, although unorthadox, this plan allows me to focus SOLEY on my arts and to live in this great city. Here is my plan!
I do NOT plan on getting a REGULAR job or place here in LA for a while. I must be sharp with my skills and have the time to stop on a dime for ANY gig that happens. However, I MUST look good and I must be clean and in shape, so I can't just be a bum. In deep meditation and with the council of some wonderfully talented BEATNIKS from the Frisco by I have decided to live on the beaches of L.A. Now, this sounds a bit funny, but to live a NORMAL live here right now would distract me from my goals. This plan will work for me and I will tell you how I am going to do it.
Recently, I have gotten a trial membership at a 24 hour GYM. This GYM has all of the things a normal GYM has except it is in L.A. and is frequented by other actors. This place has all the workout equiptment a person would need, a sauna, a pool, showers, lockers it's great!! This is where I will be spending most nights. Swimming relaxing and getting into great shape. My days, sleeping on the beach or the occasional hotel. I spend my days devouring books and am currently reading "The Basic Teachings of the Bhudda" daily. There is magic in the air!
When not sleeping studying or exercising, I will be working and it is HARD work, manual labor. I hope to get by with 3 days a week. I also plan on taking some acting classes and if my agent calls, I must go. So this plan gives me the flexibility to do so. Occasionally I will live it up and rent a room. I am pumped about this plan, it came to me after a period of deep meditition and it will work, it has been confirmed!!
Now I am not there yet, but every couple of hours something comes to me and shows me that I am absolutely on the right path. People pop up every day and night and confirm this. The other night on the beach around midnight I was approached by a playwrite who opened the conversation with tips on meditation, that afternoon an old black man in a straw hat showed me his condo on SANTA MONICA BEACH and passed me a book. He just smiled and said I was on the right path, I told him very little, yet he told me that 10 years prior he was sleeping on the beach across the street, he is Bhuddist and he saw through my quest. He filled me with encouraging words of success and I am grateful and blessed for this encounter. I ask for nothing, yet I recieve. Just yesterday I was struggling with whether I would use my money for the bus, or for food and drink as I was walking a Little Debbie Apple Pie flew, literally FLEW out of the air and hit me in the arm. Sounds crazy huh, its true!! I picked it up and looked for the person who dropped it, people where everywhere, I needed it, but I was willing to give it to its owner. No one claimed the treat. As, I set back later in the day enjoying the snack a boy brought me an Orange and 2 diet cokes.
Now I do not look like a bum. I am clean and in nice clothing that matches. Every night I meet people who I party with and have fun. I am not drinking anymore, or trying not to, yet the other night I was able to sit around the fire and party with some kids drink Grey Goose on the beach. I spend my days hanging with new people and smoking herb and talking. People love my stories and I love their company. What an adventure, all of these well off and successful people just enjoying life with me. No one knows my situation. I ask for nothing. When I feel the anxiety of life and worry, I quell it with medition. "Something amazing is going to happen" and it does.
Now this life is not easy, but it is MY life. I am CONFIDENT that this experience is making me a more complete person and am focused and assured of my success. I need so much, yet I need so little. Now, don't get me wrong, if anyone feels moved to drop a couple of bucks on my phone or donate to my quest, please drop me a line. I won't turn it down, but I ask for nothing. I have come so far and life has taken care of me.
I know that a lot of people do not understand this mission of mine, I am sorry, I almost feel bad for you. Life is AMAZING and everything you need you will get no matter what the circumstance! I will try and blog for you every day, I am writing every day again so even if I do not get online to post it, check the blog frequently, there will be more!! PLEASE PLEASE comment and email me, I am far from perfect and only on a QUEST for enlightenment, so I do get down and your love is all I need sometimes!
Most of all,
LOVE EACH OTHER!!
~tilly
~LOVE EACH OTHER
